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I've been surfing websites for awhile and I just cannot seem to locate that guy, TS or couple in Tucson that I can service. You'd think there would be lots of folks that need some stress relief but I guess not.....

I had the perfect example of a bi experience. I met this guy on Adult friend finder who was a guy next door type. We actually met up in a family bookstore and started talking...small talk mainly. He was shorter than me and I liked that. After the conversation we decided to meet at my house. Both of us were very nervous as we were unsure how we would react to one another. He and I walked into the bedroom and started to undress rapidly. We both left our boxers on and I was completely erect and he was chubbed and his boxers were already spotting with precum. A major turn on for me! He got into the bed and I layed beside him, I immediately reached for his cock and pulled it from hiding....he was very nervous as I was beginning to relax and couldn't wait to taste him.....he moved over closer to me to caress my neck with his lips....WOW....never had a guy kiss me before....odd and erotic at the same time. Feeling lite stubble against my neck! Felt like my nerve endings were having an orgasm! So erotic and I didn't want it to stop! This foreplay was driving me insane! I don't know how but we began to kiss each other and it was just like kissing a woman. Our tongues met up and I reached down and felt his juices on my fingers. His cock was harder now and he had very soft foreskin.....I loved kissing him! But so wanted to taste him....as I moved down towards his manhood he gently touched my neck and pushed me down. Lightly and gently almost lovingly pushed me down to his cock.....as I breathed on his manhood he stroked my hair and touched me as though I was the only person he wanted!! I gently wrapped my lips around his mushroom head and flicked my tongue in his hole and out again.....as he squirmed, I went down all the way and felt him in my throat....he went wild and arched his back! He shoved his cock down even farther and I gagged as I never had a cock that far....I loved it and started stroking up and down squeezing my lips around his shaft. It was so erotic and he shifted again and shot his load down my throat that quick. I tasted him juices as they pumped out! I swallowed most of it but kept a little bit to play with in my mouth. He gently reached over and french kissed it out of my mouth....so our tongues battled for his juices back and forth.....ecstasy! He reached down while we werr still kissing and started stroking me, I could feel my precum wetness on his fingers as he moved his hand all around my shaft! He stroked me gently and felt my cock spazz out and start to cum.....he immediately thrushed his mouth on me not to waste it! His mouth and tongue stroked me as I came in his mouth.....as I finished and began to shrink he moved to kiss me and shared my cum through our kissing. It was incredible and so tasty....and felt my hot ass cum swimming in our mouths. He breathed through his mouth and I smelled my musk off his breath.....I am hooked on my own taste! Yum.....we finally relaxed and layed on the bed worn completely out. He allowed my head to relax on his chest...and I shut my eyes for just a minute. He reached down with his right hand and started to stroke himself gently at first.....as his dick started to grow, he asked me to put my mouth around his head again and just wait there a second or two! And vigorously stroked his shaft and precum started oozing out then another burst of cum slammed against my tongue and throat! It was the mother load that shoved at least 7 or 8 pumps of cum......I didn't realize that my cock was being stroked by his other hand and I began to realize I was going to explode again....he quickly moved down to catch my strokes of cum in his mouth ! He made sure he swished it around and we both sucked and slurped and collided out jizz between our mouths!! It was the most invigorating experience I had ever had to include all the women I had ever been with!! The musk and cum together just lying in our mouths felt like pop rocks fizzing awesomely and we both swallowed at the same time.....we both went in for a kiss and kissed for seemed like hours. We had to get cleaned up as we had responsibilities! After he left I immediately sent him a text message and told him we have to do this again. We texted back and forth and talked about our situation to happen on a monthly basis as we both agreed! 3 weeks later he text me and said that we couldn't see each other again....bummer.....total ecstasy. ..never to happen again!!

Ever since I was 10 years old and first heard the doctors whisper about how bad my lungs looked on x-ray I knew there would be issues. They warned me it would affect me when I got older. When you are 10 you think old is 80… I was in my 30’s when problems started to develop. Couldn’t exert myself without stopping to do some pursed lip breathing to try and oxygenate, problem was exertion wasn’t walking across town or up a flight of stairs.. Some morning’s exertion was rolling over and sitting up in bed.
Cold weather affected me greatly, coughing til I threw up a lot of times. I went to countless doctors and pulmonologists and had pulmonary rehab and a wedge resection to biopsy. This little fungus called histoplasmosis really did a number on me. It led to countless bronchitis and pneumonia and in the end pulmonary fibrosing in my lungs.

For the past year and half I have struggled with severe edema in my feet and legs. They do not know the cause. They increased my meds to the point I am taking 160 mg of Lasix and 100 mg of Aldactone every day, it’s dangerous as it depletes other minerals and leaves me with severe cramps at times.

I was on steroids for almost a year and gained 100 pounds, I have lost 60 of them but the last 40 is stubborn and seems to be the fluid that I just can’t quite get rid of. It’s not unusual for my weight to fluctuate by 15 pounds from day to day due to the fluid I produce. I’m restricted to 1.5 liters of fluid a day and it doesn’t help.
My last doctor appointment the pulmonologist looked me right in the eye and told me I was dying. He ordered a sleep study and I had that done, they woke me three times to check if the pulse oximeter was working then they stuck me on oxygen.
I have a vascular ultrasound tomorrow of my legs and I have been ordered to do a PT/INT to check clot time for a baseline on Coumadin again.

All in all it’s been pretty distressing week. I have high hopes that they make actually figure something and start reversing things because I really want to prove my doctor wrong. After all they told me at 10 I was terminal and I’m now 42. So I have a decent track record of confounding them.

Married, LTR of 24 Years, always bi-courious, but never acted... Wife and I have just started Life 2.0 with son graduated and out of house, we are starting to explore naughty txt with each other and the basic stuff that new couples do.. We want to keep it fresh and real and don't want to take each other for granted. So I created an account on Adult Friend Finder just to simply see the other "half"... Not to score a date or engage in a relationship but to just explore for chat friendship... My profile is set to Bi-Courious for Couples.. I met this guy on day one.. who said he was from the next town to me.. but actually ended up being from the same area... We immediately connected on a intelligent level as we kinda wanted the same things.. He is divorced with a son 21 yo.. still at home. We are both 44 years old... only he is a definite swinger and has had great sex with another couple in the area in which the woman in the relationship calls the shots to both and he said fuck it...and complies with her orders.. We were comparing notes last week and I was really nervous about revealing my id to him.. as I am NOT gay.. actually straight, never having sex with another person except my wife in my life.. She was my first and only woman.. and I have never been with a man... although I have enjoyed my own cum from time to time.. and 25 years ago when I was 16 - 18, I could suck my own cock head.. so I was pretty self sufficient. Can't even think about sucking my own cock today.. that would cause immeasurable pain and a RA patient would not be advised to do that... Anyway... back to the farm... My new found friend and I would periodically send a TXT with a new tumblr site and stuff like that.. Well then he asked to see my cock... Well pictures on my profile were abundant so I had no problem dropping pants to show him real deal and my pics were true as described... That conversation led to another, which led to another... Well, we both exchanged real identities and of course, he is related to my wife way on down the family tree... but that is another story...but all in all we didn't know each other... so this was a relief... we talked and chatted a little more with our real id's exposed and we felt comfortable.. He then asked when he could suck m cock.. I kept playing dodge ball and made excuses for a week, then today it finally happened... I told him to come over.. Wife at work.. had a lul in client activity so I said Fuck it.. lets do it.. I directed him to get to my house.. and when he knocked on door, I unlocked and walked out and he walked in.. I closed the door and locked and said.. Well here we are.. at that moment, he shanked my shorts and exposed my caged three ring cage.. cock semi hard, but precum flowing heavily.. 7 to 8" fully erect.. I had mentioned that I may want to try my hand at sucking his cock if he didn't mind me trying out on him.. he fell to his knees and began giving me the blowjob of a lifetime.. I will tell you in 44 years, my cock has NEVER been that rock hard.. it was amazing.. He had never sucked another cock previously.. although his couple swingers friends got to enjoy the results of the fruit of their labor, he had never experienced another man as I was in the same boat... He took me on like a duck to water and after 15 mintues left my cock brused and battered from sucking! He ordered me to unload on his firm bare chest.. day before yesterday in our conversation he wanted me to unload on his face.. but he changed his mind and I unloaded four days of cum on his chest.. then he took my head and hand and told me to wipe my cum up and off his chest and eat it... which I did partake all of my cum...he finished as clean as he started... He then stood up dropped his pants and forced my head to his cock.. I knew this would be the easy part...should not be hard to do.. Well as of today, I have a completely, new found respect and admiration for those that can suck cock.. because today I quickly learned that it was not my best skillset despite may friend telling me how fantastic I was at it... matter a fact, I thought right there at the end he was going to passout from the shear excess jacking off and me drawing the cum out of him onto my chest... We were both in heaven.. I learned I had a lot to learn and he got to mark off a mutual bucket list item.. but this is not the end of this.. there will be more... We both agreed, this being our first times doing this, we were gonna have to repeat the performance and see what happens... I have really enjoyed begin able to talk to him about my deepest most interwoven experiences and thougths.. and I know he has enjoyed this aspect as well.. Its nice to be able to send a URL to a jackoff buddy and have them comment back.. you just don't get that type of interaction with your spouse... at least I don't.. now my wife doesn't mind me looking at porn and we neither one are bothered by it and actually enjoy watching porn mutually... I hope you enjoyed this TRUE blog.. This happened today, Sept 23, 2013 we meet at 12 noon and he was gone by 12:30. [blog] amannenc.tumblr.com [/blog] and [blog][URL]http://adultfriendfinder.com/blog/amannenc/[/URL][/blog]

The reason for my posting publicly about this private topic is to open others eyes to judgement.

I want people to understand that my being "out" does not have to have an impact on my marriage. It does not stop me from being the Troy that I have always been. It has made me feel better as a person, knowing that I don't have to hide the fact that i am bi/and love to dress in clothes typically con...sidered "feminine" and growing my nails or even painting them. This makes me feel on top of the world. I am still me. I do not harm anyone. This is about me, this is who *I* am.

This does not mean that *I* have to be reason my marriage is not working. Love is about acceptance and I am not accepted. I am being told how I have to live, from the way I dress, to the way I walk and talk, who I am able to be friends with and who I am not able to be friends with based purely on their sexuality.

I am being blamed for destroying my marriage and being evil because I am looking for those who support me for who I am. Sadly, I do not get the support in my own home.

I'm horny for someone to play with this weekend.

When I was 32yrs old, I was already a user of wgts 5 times a day. Was given a birthday gift of free gym for one month usage. After my circuit, I was sitting in locker when a mature man sat across from me to use his locker. After 5 minutes of small talk, he stood in front of me and took off his towel. He had a beautiful 8 inch penis and it was not even erect. He asked me o touch it and I did quickly hoping he would go to shower and leave. He did not and asked me to taste it and I did as the girls in porn do. Within 30 seconds he was hard and 1 or 2 minutes later he came on my towel. Mind you, he stated I was a natural and I loved the erotic feeling of bringing a man to his knees. Have been seeing BI and gay movies and I love both male and female organs. Sadly I was involved in an car accident and broke my tailbone. Though I am in a wheelchair, I hamster mastered blowjob, rim and riding ones unit. Would love to meet person/s to satisfy him or her.

so my boyfriend today admitted to me that he is bi and likes to be dominated. he also loves to be abused and bossed around as well as humiliated and loves to put things in his butt and he wants my friends to join in on it he doesn't only want me being mean to him and bossing him around he wants him to. . this does not bother me what ever makes him happy is fine with me but Im very shy when it comes to sexual things and I don't know if im going to be able to satisfy him with what he wants. we did things before he admitted this and it always seemed that I satisfied him but he could have been faking it I don't know. but I just need advice on this and what to do.