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[COLOR=#FFFFFF][FONT=&amp]I’ve been [/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#000000]I’ve been on and off this site for a while now off and on but have never really said anything till recently and I’ve had mixed feeling about it ever since I started interacting with everyone. I wonder now what type of person I am when it comes to my sexuality I seem to be all over the map. I at a young age interacted sexually with boys my own age but nothing more than a little touching and grabbing however my first full on having actual sex was when I was 13 and she was a 16 year old friend of the families daughter who my brothers and I spent the summers with going to year round school in the early 80’s because it was cheap daycare for my single mother with three boys at the time. She and I had been really close over the years and as we got older one thing led to another and we started getting touchy feely I guess we were safe and horny kids and we were around each other all the time that year. So she and I started hiding in the attic after school not to be bothered by the younger kids telling them we didn’t want to play with them so we could explore each other bodies. We lived there during the week and at night I would sleep in her room on a mattress on the floor which allowed us even more in the dark play time. These were the places she would let me explore her body in ways I couldn’t during the day and her mine and day after day I was allowed to touch and do more and more till one night she pulled me away from her breasts and told me to get on her where she guided my 13 year old cock right up inside her and seconds later I blew what was in me right up inside her… She told me moms and dads did this to make babies and we need to play mom and dad and make babies (we didn’t thank the heavens) and being a horny little shit I was all for it. That was one amazing summer for me she had her hand mouth or pussy wrapped around me cock almost every day we were together I can still remember all her curves till this day… We moved after summer and only saw each other every so often and we really never did anything till we all come together one Christmas we were in our late 20’s but that’s a different story for a different time but because of her I knew what to do when my first sexual experience with the first guy when one thing led to another.[/COLOR][COLOR=#FFFFFF][FONT=&amp]on and off this site for a while now off and on but have never really said anything till recently and I’ve had mixed feeling about it ever since I started interacting with everyone. I wonder now what type of person I am when it comes to my sexuality I seem to be all over the map. I at a young age interacted sexually with boys my own age but nothing more than a little touching and grabbing however my first full on having actual sex was when I was 13 and she was a 16 year old friend of the families daughter who my brothers and I spent the summers with going to year round school in the early 80’s because it was cheap daycare for my single mother with three boys at the time. She and I had been really close over the years and as we got older one thing led to another and we started getting touchy feely I guess we were safe and horny kids and we were around each other all the time that year.[/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#FFFFFF][FONT=&amp]So she and I started hiding in the attic after school not to be bothered by the younger kids telling them we didn’t want to play with them so we could explore each other bodies.[/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#FFFFFF][FONT=&amp]We lived there during the week and at night I would sleep in her room on a mattress on the floor which allowed us even more in the dark play time. These were the places she would let me explore her body in ways I couldn’t during the day and her mine and day after day I was allowed to touch and do more and more till one night she pulled me away from her breasts and told me to get on her where she guided my 13 year old cock right up inside her and seconds later I blew what was in me right up inside her… She told me moms and dads did this to make babies and we need to play mom and dad and make babies (we didn’t thank the heavens) and being a horny little shit I was all for it. That was one amazing summer for me she had her hand mouth or pussy wrapped around me cock almost every day we were together I can still remember all her curves till this day… We moved after summer and only saw each other every so often and we really never did anything till we all come together one Christmas we were in our late 20’s but that’s a different story for a different time but because of her I knew what to do when my first sexual experience with the first guy when one thing led to another. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]A lot of guys had been introduced to it by someone else so getting with me to do some cock sucking wasn't their first time so much and I learned how they were introduced to it played heavily into their desire to do it. A lot of guys got introduced by friends, family members, other adults; some were coerced into doing it, dared to do it, stuff like that and in a lot of cases, they were no stranger to sucking dick... but they hadn't been sucked so, for them, to have me blow them was a first and just like anything else in this, they either loved it or they didn't.

But, to me, the pattern was kinda clear in that the first thing a guy experienced was sucking dick, with or without sperm being in the mix. I was learning that a lot of guys were really surprised that they could be sucked by a guy and that sucking cock for the first time was so "easy" for them; some guys admitted to be very, very surprised that they didn't have to figure out how to suck a dick - and even if they'd never had their dick sucked before. In the early days, access to porn was only in the form of "dirty books" or literally on film - but you needed a projector to see it. But when the Internet came along and all kinds of porn could easily seen, it remained a constant that the first thing a guy wanted to experience was... cock sucking. Guys would come to me and either directly ask for this... or look like idiots dropping hints about it. Fucking? Totally a different thing or something they'd already decided they didn't want to try for the first time but, again, that made sense to me because, yes, it does hurt going in there the first time and depending on the size of the dick trying to get in there, it could be unbelievably painful.

So, again - maybe it was just a matter of cock sucking being the lesser of two evils? I didn't know... and I still don't know after decades of having given a lot of guys their first experience. I just know and have learned that cock sucking is usually the first thing a guy learns about and wants to experience and no matter how many women have sucked their dick and no matter if she got them off like that or not.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I gained a wealth of knowledge about cock sucking... but why this was still the first thing for a lot of guys continued to escape me and the older I got, the less I understood it. I had, indeed, stopped trying to figure it out but, in reality, it would still get into my head and more so when a guy would tell me he wanted to try it (and for whatever reason he wanted to) and I still thought that for the most part, sucking a dick was easier than having one shoved in your butt... except, with some guys, that was the second thing they wanted to experience - but not before they found out what it was like to have their dick sucked and to suck a dick themselves. Hell, for some guys who had their first experience with me, fucking was more of an afterthought than anything else because it was more important to find out about that cock sucking thing they'd heard so much about.

And even if they knew that gay guys were the kings of cock sucking. I learned that knowing this was one thing... but actually experiencing it was a horse of a different color. A lot of guys wanted to suck my dick... and just couldn't bring themselves to do it... and they would be highly pissed off that they couldn't. This one guy kept trying to blow me even when I practically begged him to stop trying because he kept throwing up and dry heaving every time he tried to get me into his mouth.

When being sucked, wow. A lot of guys just totally freaked out or they were so nervous that no matter how I sucked them - or how long I did - they couldn't get hard; some guys were so keyed up that they'd get hard... but they couldn't cum until I got them to relax and, if it helps, don't watch what I'm doing - then they'd cum like a fire hose and it was all good.

But... I [B]still[/B]​ didn't know why guys wanted this to be the first thing they learned. I did find out some other stuff, though.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Some guys could suck dick for the first time... and I wondered if they had been lying about that because they were very, very good at it. Some guys, well, it was pretty obvious they never did it before but I also noted that it didn't take them very long to get into it. One of the questions I got asked after a guy sucked my dick for his first time was, "Did I do it right?" And, yeah, even if I thought they didn't, I would say that they did because I was able to understand that sucking a guy's dick wasn't as easy as it looked or as may have been thought to be.

And a lot of guys, apparently, wanted to know what it was like and even if girls were blowing them. There were - and still are - a lot of guys who think that having a guy sucking your dick is different. There were guys who you couldn't pay to lick a girl's pussy... but they'd suck a dick in a flat, skinny second. And I still couldn't figure out why this was such an important first time thing for guys.

Over the years, I learned about oral fixation and how we're all born with the instinct to suck - on a nipple - in order to be fed and after a while, it didn't take long for me to figure out how this natural instinct played into the pleasure of sucking a dick and even sucking on a girl's pussy. Of course, I learned a lot about sucking dick... but I [B]still[/B] didn't know why so many guys wanted to experience this for their first time other than being very afraid of being fucked... because, as everyone "knew," that really hurt a lot.

So maybe it was the "lesser of two evils?" After a while, I stopped trying to figure it out but it never escaped my attention that in the majority of times, when a guy wanted to experience sex with another guy for the first time, cock sucking was the thing they wanted to experience. I had learned that a lot of those guys were highly curious - what it is like? How does it feel? Swallowing? Eh, either a guy did it or he spit it out - that acquired taste thing we've all heard about. Some guys would "accidently" swallow and, yep, some guys would throw it back up (and usually all over me) but, hmm, it wasn't that bad but some guys would taste sperm, find it not to their liking and when I was gonna cum - and I would warn them - they'd just stop sucking and use their hand to make me shoot and some would go right back to sucking me after I'd stop cumming.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Some girls were cock sucking fiends... and many weren't and I had thought that this had something to do with why so many first time guys wanted it done... but that wasn't always the case. I also found it funny that when one guy would be mad at another guy, he'd say, "Aw, man - suck my dick!" and like it was a bad thing which, of course, everyone "knew" that it was a bad thing. But I also learned that a guy would say that particular thing... because he really did want you to suck his dick and/or wanted to be able to suck yours.

I learned early on that sucking dick was easier than trying to get it in somebody's butt. It usually didn't take long to either make a guy get that good feeling or get him to shoot sperm into your mouth; cock sucking could happen pretty much anywhere you could be out of sight, could be done in a group setting and it was such a fun thing to do and more so if your butt was dirty and stuff like that.

But I still hadn't figured out why so many guys wanted to experience cock sucking as the first thing they wanted to do. I knew that some guys wanted to check it out because girls were seriously weird about doing it and a lot of them wouldn't do it because, um, they usually wound up with a mouthful of spunk - and when the guy promised that he wouldn't do that - so it made sense that girls would be very leery about it... but guys? Not so much. Sure, that first time, they'd be scared shitless but once they either started to get sucked or started sucking, they stopped being scared and took to it like ducks to water... most of the time.

Some guys didn't like it but they were a minority and as I said, I'd been sucking dicks for six years before I ran into a guy who wasn't interested in that for his first time with a guy - and I thought that was pretty strange. I came to understand that some guys thought that sucking dicks was only something that girls - and faggots - did but they didn't seem to think fucking a guy in the ass - or being fucked - was a bad thing to do. I mean, some did but those guys who didn't - or couldn't - fuck/be fucked usually were very game to get into some cock sucking.

And then there was something else I couldn't figure out...[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]In my experiences, the first boy/boy thing a guy learns is usually sucking dick and/or being sucked. I've paid attention to a lot of first times as related by other men and it was clear to me that while some guys experience fucking/being fucked, hands down - the first thing learned is cock sucking. I used to think it was just a coincidence, that it was "strange" that other guys wanted to do the same thing I had learned but over the intervening years that more guys were interested in cock sucking than fucking although a lot of those same guys either expressed an interest in this, revealed it was their first experience, or were understandably leery about it.

And I wondered why cock sucking was the "most preferred" thing - I mean, other than the obvious. When it came to my second experience, that was the first thing I wanted to do so when my friend said something about doing the nasty to each other, I blurted out that I wanted to suck his dick. He agreed and it was even more amazing than the first dick I had in my mouth - minus the spunk - and way easier. He was giggling and moving around all over the place and I had to hold him still to suck him and when he had "had enough," I sat back feeling insufferably pleased with myself.

Then he said, "I don't know if I can do that to you but I'm gonna try." He went through a long moment of gagging and making that "I'm gonna throw up" sound but he got his mouth around my dick, let his tongue play over it for a few seconds and then really went to it and making me have that "good feeling" quite a few times.

When the other guys "joined the party" it was to suck and be sucked. Somewhere along the line, fucking just seemed to be the next thing to do; some guys really liked it, some guys didn't... but every last one of us loved to suck dick and be sucked. I was the first among us to start shooting sperm and the first time I got sucked off was by a guy - he was very surprised to get a mouthful of "baby making stuff" and, yep - he threw up - but I guess he shook it off because he turned right around and sucked me off again.

It was fucking glorious. Over the next couple of months, other guys were shooting sperm now and the cock sucking was like an out of control wildfire and, again, while we were also fucking and creaming each other's butts, the number one thing to do was to suck dick.

It wouldn't be until I was fifteen or so before I ran into a guy who didn't want to suck or be sucked - he wanted to fuck and be fucked. But as I found myself giving other guys their first time, yeah - sucking dick was pretty much the main thing they wanted to experience.

But I still wanted to know why.[/SIZE][/FONT]

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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]He lived with us for the better part of a year... and the sex between us continued unabated; there was no moment where the thrill had worn off for either of us. Whether we were going down on each other or me spending time with my cock buried deeply in his ass, the sex we had was still as exciting and fulfilling as it was the first time we had sex. It was amazing. Mystifying. Unlike anything I'd ever experience - or would ever experience again.

I remain forever impressed and totally baffled over the fact that I could get my dick into him without any lubrication - and it would be decades later before something similar would happen with another guy. I didn't understand it then and I'm not sure I understand it now. He did tell me, when I mentioned it to him one day, that, sure - he'd been fucked many, many times and he just chalked this amazing thing up to his body being the way it was. Still, that he could easily take my fat, eight-inch cock into his body without a drop of lube just fucking impressed the shit out of me. He enjoyed me fucking him more than most women I've ever fucked - and I've fucked a lot of women and, to be honest? I know a lot of those women could learn something from him about being fucked because he was so undemanding about it. No need to impress him or to prove that I could make him feel deliciously good. Even on my "bad" days, he never once complained about the quantity or quality of the sex we had and on those occasions when I just couldn't bust a nut to save my life, he never complained about it.

"It happens - but you know that," he had said. "The important thing is that you still pleased me and made me happy."

It killed me when he had to leave and I've yet to come across another man who can evoke such deep emotions in me. He was truly one of a kind and there's a very empty place in my heart for him - but I can still feel the love I have for him.[/SIZE][/FONT]